For an uncertain future, one for me - Scientist

I've been such a workaholic for the past few weeks. Greedy in doing my work. But never really care of the actual outcome. I am now on a path of uncertain future. My life, my work, my dignity and my love.

And when you are beginning to be inept in your work and field. Ppl will start to question. Ppl will start to talk and they wont trust you anymore. They talk bad when you are on a high, and still they talk bad when you are at your lowest. They talk bad; that is just what they do.

Ppl come in and out from your life like its a convinient store. They grab hurriedly to what they want, pay for it, leave the change at times, and go about to their original business. They dont bother to look up at the cashier. They leave the resit on the counter. They line up to pay only when the feel like it. They dont care. They want to get in there, buy what they want and leave. Leave you until the next visit, expecting to make that routine purchase again, without any glimpse of wanting to really know you or to really care.

They dont seem to appreciate the convenience that you are providing for them until you are closed and done. Closed your heart shut. Then they will realise that they miss you..... But they dont grieve for long. They'll just curse you to your guts. Curse you because you are no longer there to provide for them...

When you finally decided to open up your heart again, they will just enter again like as if nothing had happened. Not even a smile or slight sigh of relief.

They come in, grab what they want, pay and leave. Never bother to look up. Never bother to turn around upon exiting and be thankful and smile......

You are just a convenient store to them.. I am a convenient store to you.
Hit me and or leave me as you wish. All to your heart's content..................... I am just a convenient store to you.......

Scientist - by Coldplay

Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Comet tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Come tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
All in a rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Comin' back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start...

Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ah ooh ooh ooh ooh